Sleep is for the Weak

I’m. So. Tired. I don’t know what the hell is wrong with Becca. She hasn’t been sleeping through the night! I attribute this evil behavior – emphasis on evil – to the fact that she’s teething. Or, maybe it’s her sniffles? Which could be allergies… maybe? I don’t know, but she’s old enough to be sleeping through the night and the fact that she isn’t is taking a toll on me!

I know doctors argue that infants don’t have allergies, but I beg to differ. My nose felt stuffy yesterday and I had a slight headache, so I figured she felt the same way – like mother, like daughter, right? She was mouth breathing all night and woke up every hour.

Needless to say, coffee is my companion as I write. Granted it tastes like shit, but Lord knows I need me some caffeine this morning. I probably shouldn’t be using ‘shit’ and ‘Lord’ in the same sentence but remember – I’m. So. Tired.

Oh. Note to self and a serious PSA, do yourself a favor and skip Kirkland brand coffee from Costco. Sorry, Costco (not really), but seriously, it doesn’t taste good. At all. And you get something like, 1,000 K-cups in the box? I only linked it so you know which one you should not purchase!

I’m down to my last 4 cups (THANK GOD) and not sure what coffee I should try out next. Any suggestions? I limit my coffee intake to Saturday mornings because I’m your typical sugar + cream girl and my end goal is to drink it just black. So, what that looks like is drinking it as little as possible – ha!

I’ve lost focus. This is truly the ramblings of a tired woman. What I should be doing right now is working out. What a normal day would look like is: wake at 0450, meditate, dress for a garage gym workout.

I am so fortunate to have workout equipment at home. I don’t have to leave my house to get a good workout in and, the real plus, I don’t have to wake the kids earlier than usual for daycare (we’re talking 0530 here).

Anyway, the workout isn’t happening this morning because… you guessed it… I’m. So. Tired.

Still, the shitty coffee is slowly flowing through me and I’ll be energized enough for a noon workout later today. Now that I think of it, it’ll be a nice change to run on the track inside the gym as opposed to running on the treadmill.

Which reminds me! I’ve decided to run a 5K this summer. La Cerveza Run 5k to be exact. I haven’t done a ‘fun run’ in a few years so this should be… fun! It’s not that big of a deal. A 5k is only 3.1 miles which is only 1.1 more miles than I’m required to run for the Army Physical Fitness Test (APFT).

I’m laughing as I type this because I’m not sure if I’d even pass the APFT if I were required to take it at this very moment. I’m tired as shit.

Either way, I am determined to run this 5K!

Alright. I went off on a huge tangent. This post was supposed to be about my lack of sleep due to teething/maybe allergy ridden/sniffling Becca. I’m exhausted, but I’ll be OK. Only three more day until Saturday and then I’ll (hopefully) get to sleep in.

Off I go for the day – wishing you all a productive Wednesday!

Where’s My Phone?

I love watching my three-year-old son explore and learn new things as he fearlessly plays around the house. Although it can be overwhelming at times, I truly enjoy being a mother. Since having my four-month-old-baby girl at home, I’ve had to be extra watchful with my son. He’s adjusted well to being a big brother, but I think he still misses the undivided attention he received prior to her arrival. Needless to say, he’s been able to get away with more mischievous behavior than I’d like to admit. It’s not because I don’t care what he does or that I don’t pay attention to him but having to care for two children while working a full time job and having a spouse that works out of town is not always so easy. Luckily, I’ve developed a routine that allows enough time to care for them individually without losing my mind. Continue reading “Where’s My Phone?”

No One Told Me

My mother always said, “You’ll never know how much I love you until you have children of your own.” I don’t even remember why she’d tell us this. Maybe because we’d have disputes about who loved each other more? Who knows? What I do know is that she was right. I didn’t know how much my mom loved me (and continues to love me) until I had my first child. I get it now. I completely understand why my mother would cry when she watched the news. I understand why my mother would cry when she saw her babies hurt. Continue reading “No One Told Me”

Who Told You That?

I can’t be the only one that feels lost in this life. Not in the sense that I don’t know where I’m going when I die; I know I’m saved by the grace of God and whole-heartedly believe that He died to save me from my sins. What I mean is that I don’t know WTF I’m doing. These last few week, months actually, I’ve been thinking about what I’m really doing with my life. I feel like time is going by so quickly and I’m just here casually wasting time. I feel there’s something more I should be doing. I know God has a calling for each and every one of our lives. I have no doubt about this, so what am I meant to do? Why do I feel so lost? Continue reading “Who Told You That?”

I Have Big Dreams, Too

I’ve been trying to write this post for the last three days and have not been able to complete it because well, I’m a mom and things don’t always go as planned. I’m writing this while my three-year old sits next to me making crashing noises as he smashes his Angry Bird toys against each other.

I know most mothers will agree when I say that being a mom is a full-time job. Whether you’re a stay at home mom or not; you cannot just ‘clock out’ and decide you’re done for the day. It’s a constant giving of yourself and caring for someone else’s needs more than your own. I’m not complaining (yet). I am aware of how fortunate I am to be able to bear children. They truly are a miracle and add such joy in my life. Just hear me out. Continue reading “I Have Big Dreams, Too”

Am I Doing This Right?

Don’t know what the hell I was thinking when I created this account. I’m not sure why I assumed this website would be a little more user-friendly. I know I’m getting old because I don’t quite understand how to maneuver half the widgets (or whatever they’re called) that are on here. I tried linking my Snap Chat and YouTube account on the home page and it didn’t quite go the way I expected. Anyway, I’ll get the hang of it.

So, the purpose of this blog is to simply journal whatever is on my mind as well as things I experience day-to-day. I’m eager about this as I greatly desire to improve my grammar, vocabulary, and writing skills. My greatest desire however, is that my children (especially my daughter) get to learn through my experiences. I know they’ll experience life for themselves and I’m fine with that but I hope through this blog (online journal, really) they get to, one day, look back at this and get to know me in a way that not very many of us get to know our parents. I hope they can see me through a different light and see things through my eyes as I watch them grow.

I’m grateful for this technology and hopefully it will still be around by the time my children are old enough to read.